Archives for category: Failure

Comarison is the Thief of Joy September 15 2012

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I’ve been doing something stupid lately. I know I shouldn’t be doing it, but I do anyways. Ugh. I’ve been comparing myself to other people.

I know everyone is different, you can’t put people side by side to see how they stack up against each other, but for some reason my head has been doing it recently.

Whatever I start doing it I always feel bad about myself. It doesn’t matter if it’s with people in real life, or other bloggers, or whatever. It doesn’t matter what part of my life it’s in, I always end up on the losing side.

For the last little while I’ve been really good at not doing it. It’s actually been pretty awesome. But for some reason the last couple days have been tough. I don’t know what it is.

So I’m going to try to make a conscious effort to not compare myself to others the next week or so and see how it goes.

Tell me I’m not the only one who gets stuck in this rut every once in while. What do you do to stop doing it?

Each Day September 4 2012

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The last couple days I’ve been eating amazingly good – better than I have been in a couple months. It’s been awesome.

Then last night happened. I helped the boyfriend move yesterday afternoon for a couple hours, carrying boxes into the house. I was hot, tired, and sweaty by the time I left. I was hungry too, but I figured dinner was only an hour or so away, so I’d just wait to eat.

Dinner ended up being later than I thought. Much later – like 3 hours later. By that time I was ravenous, but I didn’t eat enough dinner. So twenty minutes later I ate a candy bar and Twizzlers for dessert. Cause eating a massive dessert and pumping myself full of sugar is better than having seconds of a healthy dinner, right?

My first lesson from last night is to make sure I eat before I get crazy hungry. Cause obviously letting myself get that hungry doesn’t work for me.

My second lesson is to not let it hang over me. Last night was last night. Today is today. Bad decisions last night don’t have to effect today. I’m capable of making good decisions today even though I messed up last night. I don’t have to keep making myself feel bad.

Mud Hero July 18 2012

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I’ve decided that I’m not going to be able to run in Mud Hero. It makes me so sad to think that I’m not going to be doing it, but I know it’s the right decision for me.

A couple months ago I was going to physio for plantar fasciitis in one of my feet. By the time I ended physio I was 85 or 90% back to normal – my physio guy thought I could do the rest by myself, which I totally agreed with.

Things with my feet haven’t been going so well lately though. The plantar fasciitis is slowly but surely getting worse. This is my fault, cause I haven’t been consistent the last couple weeks about doing the stretching. It’s pretty frustrating, but I know what I need to do to make it better – and hopefully that’ll happen soon. If not I’m going to make a physio appointment to see what’s up.

Because my foot hasn’t gotten back to 100% yet, I haven’t been running. Well, that’s not true – I’ve been playing soccer so I’ve definitely been active, but I haven’t done any real “runs” since my last physio appointment back in May. I’ve been waiting for my foot to be 100%, but that hasn’t happened yet.

As much as I know I needed to take it easy and let my body heal, I’m still feeling kind of like a failure. I signed up for it back in March when I was dealing with a bunch of stressful stuff – I was really looking forward to running it. And now that it’s just about here and I know I won’t be participating, well I’m just feeling kind of bummed out about it.

Luckily a friend of mine had mentioned that he’d be interested in taking my spot, so that’s likely what will happen to my registration. I’m glad that if I can’t run, at least my spot won’t go to waste and someone will be able to enjoy it.